Mze miwa da parazitebi

isev TEendeba...
mzis Tbili, yviTeli sxivebi intimurad exeba garyvnil, mtvrian miwas...
me isev fanjarasTan vzivar quCaSi viyurebi da vxedav am TiTqos amaRelvebel sanaxaobas...
es ukve meramdened gaTenda ase... male qalaqic gaiRviZebs da Cems fiqrebsa da ocnebebs CanTqavs misi moZraoba... amdeni uazro yialiT daviRale da am bolo dros davfiqrdi Tu rogori erTferovani gaxda cxovreba... adre xalxTan bevri ram makavSirebda(yovel SemTxvevaSi ase vfiqrobdi) axla aRaraferi! rodesac moseirne axalgazrdebs vxedav, baRSi mjdom saqarTvelos bedze Cafiqrebul moxucebs ubralod buzTa grova mgonia meti araferi... adre maTsSi brbos mainc vxedavdi. axla? axla ukve paraziti arsebebi gaxdnen CemTvis romelTac saaTobiT SeuZliaT laparaki TavianT problemebze... ara raTqmaunda Seni problemebic ar aviwydebaT da aTiaTasobiT uazro rCevisgan dagxunZlaven... fu TavlTmaqcoba! ah! mTavari ar damaviwydes... 32 maneTad ruseTSi gadafrenebi... (aRar vagrZeleb)
mZuls Tu ara es sazogadoebad wodebuli muqTaxoraTa gaerTianeba? ara ra Tqma unda...  mecodebian... radgan Tavi bednierebi hgoniaT da dagcinian Sen raTa maTTan erTad ar xar im dedaatirebul WaobSi CaSvebuli...metic... maT ezizRebi radgan TavianTususurobas aCveneb... (es albaT ufro Suria, magram ra mniSvneloba aqvs?)  ubralod maT grZnoba Suri aRzvebuli "hyavT"... erTmaneTis siyvarulze ragas vityvi..? bevrs verafers... siyvaruli aq sasacilo Temaa gamxdari... siyvaruli romelic samyaros unda aerTianebdes aq ubralo pekinis boziviTaa galanZguli da Seuracxyofili... magram pekinze bozebs ar dascinian mainc...

                                                                                                                                          21.10.10

George Ebralidze Sergi Gvarjaladze (1992).avi

Sav-TeTri

minda Sav-TeTrad aRviqvamde samyaros... minda cas lurjis magivrad monacrisfro feri hqondes.... minda Sen saxeze Cemi xelebi (da masze daberili venebi) Savad Candes mkrTali CrdilebiT... minda orferovani iyos msoflio... TeTri da Savi... meti ara-feri arsebobdes... kargi iqneba mTel qveyanaze me da Sen rom viqnebiT marto, Tan feris gareSe... feri ara magram funqcia gveqneboda orives erTnairi da Tan Zalian gansxvavebuli... Sen me geyvarebodi, me Sen... yoveldge Sav-TeTrad gaTendeboda... aseve daRamdeboda... sanTelic ise gaanaTebda... Cven arasdros mogvwyindeboda erTmaneTisTvis gveTqva "me Sen miyvarxar!" -"mec..." amasac  monacvleobiT vityodiT... xan Sen xan me... ase vicxovrebdiT sicocxlis bolomde... manam Cems gaciebul cxedars Seni cxeli cremli ar daecemoda... manam marto ar darCebodi da me mogonebad gadaviqceodi...    


  SeiZleba mosawyenia Sav-TeTrad dedamiwaze marto cxovreba (Cven 2 xo 1 varT) yoveldRe erTidaigive magram am wams am wuTas da am mdgomareobaSi sigiJemde mizidavs...

ambavi akvariumisa, romelic shushis mushebma ar gaaketes...

mze daibrida... micvalebuliviT Cades kuboSi da kuboianaT zRvis iqiT... Cem fanjarasTan vijeqi da gulSi SuSis muSebs vaginebdi, romelTac mrgvali akvariumis gakeTeba ar SeeZloT, an SeeZloTda CemTvis ar akeTebdnen ezarebodaTda imitom... rogori uazroebi arian RmerTo Cemo, rogori araraobebi... adamians rom Sexedav, TvalebSi ro Caxedav, ver unda igrZno imis tkivili an gasaWiri? magram rodesac fexebze gkidia Sen garSemo yvela TvalebSi Caixedav ki ara Tvaliskenac ver gaixedav... ara Tvaliskenac gaixedav da masSic Caixedav, magram Sig verafers dainaxav Savi sferos garda...
    ase rom, axla, me, am fanjarasTan mjdoms, mezizReba yvela SuSis muSa da arcerTis tkivils ar viziareb! arcerTis!!! mec fexebze mkidian isini, rogorc maT me ramdenime saaTis win... verc me davinaxav maT TvalebSi Savi sferos garda verafers... magram ara imitom rom isini fexebze mkidian (ara fexebze namdvilad mkidian) aramed imitomrom maT TvalebSi araferi weria... carielia... rogorc mati gulebi, sulebi da Tavebic ki... Seuracxyofa? ra sisulelea... ubralod SuSis muSebze gaborotebuli Cemi Cemis fiqrebi....

Vardisferi

damelode gTxooov……!
Sen isev win garbixar… (raTqmaunda nawyeni xar Cemze)
da araTu damelodo da erTad viaroT, Cemi erTi sityvis gagonebac ki ar ginda…
wvims…
vxedav rogor erwymis Seni cremli wvimas… ukan var magram maic vxedav, albaT ufro vgrZnob… iqneb ar ginda cremliani Tvalebi damanaxo(?) (arada rogor uxdeba qals cremli… Tan Sen) me xom arasdros minaxixar Sen mtirali…
qaric amovarda… wvimaSi uceb afrialdnen sveli vardisferi polietilebis parkebi, isinic tirian Sen rom gxedaven (arada es ubralod wvimis wveTebia romlebiTac isinia danamuli)
dagewio? ro dagewio ra giTxra? bodiSii? meramdened? me ukve mrcxvenia… (Cemi Tavis)  Tan raRac makavebs, albaT ar minda cremliani gnaxo… Tan me ver SevZleb Tavs davajero rom es ubralod wvimis wveTebia da ara cremli…
me vCerdebi… ar SemiZlia aseTs giyuro Sen, Cem Tavs…  da isev qarSi mocekvave parkebs vuyureb… davakvirdi… ara isini Sen ar TanagigrZnoben… axla gamaxsenda isini xom usuloebi arian rogor eqnebaT TanagrZnobis unari...? sadRac wavedi… iq aRar viyavi, axla ukve mZulda parkebi, wvima, me… Cven xom ase ar gvesmoda Seni…
ar vici ramden xans gagrZelda es magram rom gamovfxizldi, aRarc wvima iyo, aRarc parkebi da.. da aRarc Sen… wvimidan wasuli ki ukan arasodes brundeba…

Fokus..

...yvelaferi zustad isea rogorc fotoaparatshi...vinmes dainaxav fokusshi moaqcev da vso imis iqit bundovania yvelaferi... agarc xma ismis agarc gamosaxuleba
chans... rig shemtxvevashi kargia, magram aris shemtxvevebi romelshic diid cud rols tamashobs 1 adamianze gasworebuli fokusi... dadixar, daxetialob
yvelafers bundovnad xedav ver agiqvam... verc martoobas, verc shishs da tkivils, verc sicives... yvelaferi es bundovania... am dros qalaqshi, qveyanashi,
msoflioshi, samyaroshi dadis is romelsac srulad agiqvam, yvela ferit, sul wmindad da gamartulad... romlis xmac suftad gesmis da romlis danaxvisac guli
diametrshi 5-6 santimetrit pataravdeba... magram wamis shemdeg grdznobit, gaskdomamde ivseba... magram es bedniereba ishviatze ishviatia... bundovnebashi
xom kargad chans wminda gamosaxuleba, magram is imdenad shorsaa rom chams bundovneba... iqneb ishviatoba romaa imitom dzgers gulic danaxvisas da imitomac
ivseba gadmosvlamde grdznobit... xoo.. yvelaferi xom ase martivadaa cxovrebashi... ggonia gagijebs arada sheechvie...

...

shen shegidzlia gamishva me saqmeze saidanac ici rom an davbrundebi an ara? saqme romelic qveyanas ukavshirdeba qveynis ertianobas. imisgan damoukideblad
gamova tu ara. shen mpirdebi rom arasdros ifiqreb, arasdros gefiqreba rom me tavi araraobistvis gavwire? iqnebi yoveltvis bednieri imit rom sheni shvili
qveynistvis mokvda? shedzleb amis dajerebas? amis agqmas odesme? mapatieb odesme sikvdils? unda mapatio..! da bolos. shegidzlia rom odesme gulshi gaifiqro
rom gvidzl shvilze metad qveyana giyvars? unda shedzlo unda gabedo... mashin vigrdznob suls mshvidad... mashin mivxvdebi rom shen tavze metad gyvarebivar!

Buxrian saxlshi

ukve 1 kviraa rac aq var... dges martooba metkina da gadavwyvite megobari gamechina... chantashi dzveli, shavi tyavis bloknoti vipovne, gayvitlebuli
furclebit... pasta ar maqvs amitom chanawerebs naxshiris patara marcvlebit vaketeb... weris dros iseti shegrdzneba michndeba titqos chem sayvarel
adamiantan vzivar da vuyvebi yvelafers... chems yofas, cxovrebas... ra viyavi.. ra var... da rogorobas minda mivagwio...
 vuyvebi yvelafers, yvelaferze, sul patara ambavsac romelic dgis ganmavlobashi gadamxdeba sagamos buxartan santlis shuqze vuziareb... is ar mpasuxobs
arc minda mipasuxs me xom swored amistvis gamoveriye xalxs wamovedi aq rom davisveno matgan, momenatros isini..rom iqneb damibrundes matdami siyvaruli...
monatreba xom sauketeso sashualebaa namdvili grdznobis agmosachenad... rogorc ukve vtqvi aq wamosvla xalxma gadamawyvetina, me mat vegar vitandi...
amdenma siyalbem damgala ici? rogor sheidzleba adamians tvalebshi uyurebde da atyuebde... adre tvalebit ertmanets vesaubrebodit vuyvebodit yvelafers...
axla..? axla tvalebshi chaxedvis meshinia diiiidi ufskruli da shavi sicariele chans marto mat migma... chemi bloknoti aseti araa... iqidan sityvebi migimian,
mat tvalebshi vxedav siyvaruls, sitbos, rasac adre adamianebshi vxedavdi da mizidavda... iqneb me shevicvale? chemi tvalebis sigrme daeshva dabla da iqidan
ar chans sxvisi sitbo, siyvaruli..? shesadzlebelia... meki sxvas vabralbdi... magram bloknotis sityvebis tvalebs migma rom vuyureb siyvaruls..?
-ex ar vici, ar vici aq xom swored magitom var... albat isev shemiyvardebit...

shen... da me....

zgvis talgebtan sruliad marto... shen xom dges ukve marto talgebtan megobrob... megobrebi daiviwye, (an dagiviwyes) mshoblebtan agar urtiertob, me?
me sul agar varsebob shentvis. shentvis axla mxolod talgebi, mtvare da vaskvlavebi darcha.... mattan laparakshi, mattan urtiertobashi poulob sulier xsnas...
am dros me..? me shengan daviwyebuli da "mitovebuli"? shentvis titqos sulerti var? ara... shen xom shens axlandel megobrebs sul chemze uyvebi...
ertad gatarebul droze, ertad chadelil gijobebze......
-icit chven pirvelad bagtan shevxvdit... sadgac pekinze, shevxvdit ra me movdiodi megobrebtan ertad, is marto...
marto modioda da me ara usasrulobas uyurebda sadgac shors me me momewona mis mzrashi sichkvianis naperwkali misi araadamianuri araamqveyniuri gamometyveleba.
rogorc mere mitxra chemze firobda  mashin ar micnobda nanaxic ar vyavdi ubralod icoda rom chemze fiqrobda... ratom dgemde ver amouxsnia, ubralod tvali rom
gamiswora uceb fiqridan gamovida jer ver gaerkva... shemdeg mixvda rom me realuri viyavi da saxeze wruwunasavit gimilma gadaurbina... me... me shemrcxva
da tavi davxare...
- uyvebodi shen talgebs da varskvlavebs (mtvare ar chanda...) ertxelac shentan chamosvla gadavwyvite.. mindoda ubralod shens tvalebshi chamexeda me mindoda
iq isev is sitbo damenaxa da amistvis iqve im wamsve tavs moviklavdi... shen tavs vficavar...  martla moviklavdi an bednierebisgan movkvdebodi...
ogond manamde erts gulshi chagikravdi da patiebas gtxovdi yvelafristvis... da mere movkvdebodi ogond ise rom shen ar gcodnoda...
chamovedi... chamosvlistanave cud xasiatze davdeqi ujmuri amindi iyo... wvimda... arc wvimda.. grubeli efareboda mzes, ar
ushvebda chventan shesaxvedrad... magram imdeni sindis-namusi mainc gaachnda rom wvimit ara gvasvelebda... (neta daVesvelebinet)
gaxsovs me sul meshinodda wylis... shen giyvarda... gexvewebodi ase axlos nu midixar  gelvis dros shors nu gaxval magram ar gjeroda da...
da chamosvlistanave sheni dagupvis ambavic gavige... muxlebi momekveta davvardi magram ver...ver.... ver mjeroda... shen zgvashi..
is xom sheni megobari iyo... ertaderti... iqve shushas veci chavtexe da natexi swrafad aravis rom ar gavecherebine xelze davisvi witlad shemegeba maja...
mere xeli mere dzirs wvetvac daiwyo.. nel nela dzala mertmeva... ukve bundovnad vxedav... xmac shoridan mesmis.. "-033"... "saswrafo..."
ai shen gxedav... shen ogond bundovnad ara wmindad... rogoric xar... migimi, agar mibrazdebi... me shen miyvarxar... geubnebi... -mec...

dausruleblad...

weris droa axla? gareT qaria… oTaxSi sicive… kedlebze droSebi, medlebi, erTi organ Tofic… (omgamovlili) menjis Zvlebze erTi fexi… saxeze erTi Tvali da didi iara marcxena warbidan nikapamde…  gulSi… gulSi ra, guli… dafleTili… aRar…

werilisavit

shemodgomis susxiani sagamo...
titqos sevdianad wvims, tan arc wvims... ubralod ragac ujmuri amindia...  rac shen waxvedi imis mere am bagshi ertxelac ar gamomivlia... da ici rato? ubralod shen tavs maxenebda, ara shen tavs ki ar maxsenebda ver avitane shen gareshe aq gamovla... da axlac dzalian gakvirvebuli var es nabiji ram gadamadgmevina... ar vici iqneb imdenad dachagra monatrebam sevda rom mec damimona... magram monatrebac titqos ertgvari sevdaa... axla ki am bagshi mimavals maxsendeba chveni gavlili dro da sevdis magivrad gimili mekvreba saxeze...
vixseneb yvelafers am bagshi gadadgmul yovel nabijs, yovel sityvas romelic ertmanetistvis gvitqvams... da bednieri var im wamebit wutebita da saatebit romlebic chven aq ertad gagvitarebia...
mere...
mere shen waxvedi... daikarge... daikarge ra - me dagkarge, yoveltvis vcdilobdi shentvis satanado yuradgeba momeqcia yoveltvis mindoda shen yvelaze win dameyenebine magram ratomgac gesmis? ratomgac shinagani me ar madzlevda amis sashualebas...
da shenc meti vegar moitmine... ici? arc gamtyuneb... shen adgilas albat mec ase moviqceodi... ararealurad jgers meorexarisxovneba arc me ar momwons... arada shen, shen xo magmertebdi am sityvis sruli mnishvnelobit sul gindoda gesiamovnebina chemtvis... es mashin roca me shentvis erti patara, mindvris yvavilebisagan shekruli taigulic ki ar michuqebia...
ex magram yvelaze cudi isaa am yvelafershi rom me axla vxvdebi chem danashauls da amis gamosworeba agar shemidzlia.. agar!
ai... isev daiwyo sevdianma wvimam wkapuni...
isev daiwyo sevdianad wvetebis frqveva...

Isev tendeba...

bnel otaxshi shavad civa da sazizgrad xmaurobs sichume...
ise sazizgrad rom tavi mtkivdeba da vcdilob alesili sityva chavartya sichumes gulshi da ganvgmiro magram...
magram ar gamomdis....
xma ar amomdis...
bgerebi ar ismis...
ikargeba...
am sazarelma xmaurma chantqa isini...
me ki...
me ki isev chemtvis gankutvnil adgilas vzivar da vcdilob ar vifiqro am gamayruebel aurzaurze, romelic ase moqmedebs chms nervebze...
am dros, rogorc yoveltvis, shemodixar shen, anteb shuqs da ukve gamayruebeli xmit mogugune sichume sasikvdilo sarecelze wveba...
me ki gelodebi...
gelodebi dausruleblad...
magram....
magram aravin chans aravin agebs kars da antebs shuqs....
da ukve meramdened...
nel-nela tendeba...


                                                  
                                                                                                      

chemi axali weli...

ar miyvars axali weli.. ar miyvars...
"-miyvars axaili wlis molodini, mezizReba pirveli ianvris pirvelive wuTi!" me egec ar miyvars... arc molodini..
saerTod, lodini mezizgeba... ra sayvareli lodinia...
xo axal welze vambobdi ar miyvarsTqo, axali weli axali ocnebebis, miznebis dasaxvis, axali urTierTobis (an Zvelis ganaxlebis) unda iyos..
ocnebebi... ocneba warsuls Cabarda mware realobaSi ocnebis dro da saSualeba aRaravis aqvs...
"-wagarTves?" diax zustadac rom wamarTves... wamarTves ggoniaT motyuebiT? ggoniaT malulad da Cumad? ara! aSkarad, yvelas dasanaxad da Tan damnaSvec me gamovedi... Turme rom vocnebobdi realobas ver aRviqvamdi da realoba xom pirveli Rirebulebaa dRevandelobaSi (viTom?!)
miznebis dasaxva... ra miznebi unda daisaxo, an rogor unda daisaxo rame mizani, romelic ukve CanasaxSic ki ganwirulia sasikvdilod..? ar girs..
"-Sen mainc cade.." vcado da ra mivigo isev imedgacrueba? isev ubeduri saxeebi da "keTilismsurvelebis" cinikurad Camomtirali saxeebi... ara gmadlobT... iyos ar minda..
axali urTierTobebi(an Zveli ganaxlebuli)... axali urTierTobebis dasawyebad optimizmia saWiro, saWiroa endobode 1 adamians mainc saWiroa gqondes vinmes (ramis) imedi, bolo bolo gwamdes mainc (Tundac imis..!) Tu es arcerTi grZnoba SenSi ar mimoiqceva ra azri aqvs axal urTierTobas (an Zvelis ganaxlebas) gamarjobas ugulod vinme Semxvedrsac etyvi da mokiTxviT Sens mezobelsac moikiTxav romelic sul geCxubeba musikas dabal xmaze mousmine.. amden sigarets nu ewevi... da ase Semdeg sayvedurebs ra dalevs... (albat amasac kargi unda Cemtvis da imitom)
mokled... me var gamriyveli da ara gariyuli... me gavriye yvela da ara yvelam me... me ar miyvaran isini da ara imat me... (imatac ar vexatebi gulze, vaRiareb, magram me ufro ar miyvaran!)
da ra gamovida ar miyvars axali weli, var gamriyveli da amastan gariyuli, Tan sazizgari pesimisti? oh mTavari damaviwyda... me xom urwmuno var...
"tqven xom Tayvans scemt marto
jvars da isesos freskas
xolo chemtvis eg ori
kerpebi aris mxolod"
da am dros modis Tovlis babu... wverit, ulvaSit da aRajRajebuli loyebit (mTvralia epatieba) da saswaulebze gesaubreba... Tan saaxalwlo saswaulebze...
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